KNotes

I look at all those happy faces, The ones even heaven embraces. There seem to be worries, so little, Everything is so brittle.  I try to find the reason  How and why, The smiles never wear off,  No one seems to cry.  What is it that  They do; that makes them  Smile so wide,  And where am I missing, until I realise, even I do; I myself wear a plastic smile.  ~ Guni

I do not like to think of what happens after I write,  For feeding the soul, is what I do;  Drenching in mortal pain, it is, in spite, . The soul gets what it desires, so true.  Feasibly, cramp my hand would, dire,  But won't my mind stop, until I write, what it desires.  And though it hurts, my heavy soul,  For whom & why I write, a puzzle I bestow.  I do not prefer to think what may happen After I write; it's a gut-wrenching fear,  As a blank life is what I see without writing;  Words in my mind, shed as tears. ~ Guni

Imagine a world where There was no one to read. No one to admire culture,  Neither any creed.  Like an empty nest Existence would rest. How would it bleed If there was no one to read.  No precious words Would ever be heard, For there would be No souls to ever whir.  Hollow our lives would become, Never any pain we would succumb. No fiction would ever breed, If there was no one to read.  To imagine it is impossible The world would be a puzzle. No imagination would we ever feed, If there was no one to read.  ~ Guni

Into the unknown, I walk for miles, So many people, so many eyes. Looking for someone, I cry. I don't even know why. With fear in my heart, Doubts in my mind, I Walk, widening my eyes. Why am I, I ask myself, Why did you, I curse myself. And through the troubles, I walk, No matter what, I do not stop. Because the moment I will, My mind would be filled, And the reason would be killed. ~ Guni

I don't feel I am a writer I happen to know because they call me so,  I don't know who a writer is; is it someone who writes,  or someone who expresses to survive? I don't know how this world  caves in on a piece of paper,  there is always so much to be left for later;  Every time someone writes their mind with ink,  it's a new world, a novel beginning.  Who is a writer, is it the one who writes on paper? I don't call myself one, too,  because bleed my heart on paper is all I do; perhaps this is what they do, mere mortals,  others call them writers and make them immortal.   ~ Guni

They held their hands, and began their journey,  made of faith, but filled with obscurity; making vows, never to let go; two different bodies, yet the same soul. Walking through, the phases of life,  locking their vision, in each others' eye; not wanting to stop, never wanting to give up,  when everything started to tear up. So far, yet so close to each other,  can never see each other suffer; going through the ups & downs; always together, the other way round. Reliving the moments they spent together, hoping for each other to smile forever;  making way through the worst of times,  knowing this would all end and everything will shine,  watching their love expand,  never letting go of each other's hands... ~ Guni Image source - Google Images

The rain fell from the heavens, appearing magically,  showing off its power with thunder; so gentle, yet so devastating,  closing the pool of sunlight, opening the oceans of thinking. Still falling, cleansing the trees, tripping from the leaves;  The gushing winds, making it feel like the stars falling, the lightning, as if the promised land is calling,  the water on the humanly land, merely crawling, memories from the past, my mind recalling.   The darkness, lighting up my mind, making it feel like heaven's sign; The droplets refreshing my soul,  wanting it to pour, for some time more, endless magic happening,  but in the end, the sky was blue again,  for it was just the rain falling... ~ Guni  (image source - Google Images)      

Still in love with the night the breeze passing me by, brushing my hair,  dampening my eye; The sky, bowl of stars, full of imaginations,  yet so void, fills my heart with joy; So dark, yet so diverse, makes me think, this is some other universe; The rustling leaves, the swaying trees, take me to an auspicious place, which gives my mind, the empty space; The moon, so simple,  yet so gorgeous, reflecting the light, well, that's so obvious; The silence,  giving me the peace, making me feel like, on the top of a peak; I'm Still in love with the night,  it reminds me of who I am, makes my mind light, helps me sleep alright. ~ Guni  image source - Google 

Some nights I just wanna cry, no matter how hard I try,  it just keeps hitting my mind... There are places to go,  yet I open the same door,  I look at our happier times,  lying on the floor... I remember the times,  when troubles seemed far,  but they now feel impossible to apart, never saw this coming from the stars... No matter what we face,  I'll never leave you in this place,  I'll crawl us out of this blue space,  it may take time, for this is not a race... If you ever get stuck in the sand,  I'll give you my hand,  for it will be always there for you,  it is something you always knew... Yes, m'love, alright everything will be,  just believe in us, you'll see, is there anything stronger, I would always deny,  than this bond between You & I... ~ Guni    (Image source - Google) 

Woke up from the noisy alarm, the birds chirping & squirrels making that sound,  the sunlight waiting at the window, waiting for me, for me to open it and let her in,  so it can make my room less dim;  so much light, yet everything feels so mild,  my body doing the daily chores,  while sitting alone is demanded by my soul. Another day has passed, staring at the light emitting box,  for that's the only way with you I can talk, fixating my eyes upon the 'sacred' text in my textbooks, sowing the seed, not knowing for what fruit. Another day has passed, strumming my guitar, humming our favourite hymn, gazing upon the stars, looking at your painting; savouring your love,  for that's more than enough. Another day has passed,  knowing you're beside me, still waiting for you to come, wanting to end this phase, so we can finally see each other's face... ~ Guni  Image source - Google

Whenever you feel like giving up,  look around you, you live in a world full of things which won't have existed if someone gave up. Take a look at the website you are on right now, what if the programmer who was programming this gave up after some unsuccessful tries? Take a look at your study table, what if the carpenter who made it gave up while he was learning how to make things? Or what if the person who designed it gave up when he was unable to have ideas for designing? Take a look at your phone, what if the company's founder decided to give up when his ideas were considered vague?  Take a look at your garden, what if the gardener had given up gardening when he was unable to make some flowers bloom? Take a look at the nest on a tree, what if the bird had given up when it's nest was attacked by other animals? Take a look at the ant who just got into the ant colony, what if it gave up when it was climbing the wall again & again and falling down each time? Take a look ...

There was a time,  When homes were not limited to their boundaries,  and rivers were treated like Goddesses, be it Narmada, or Godavari.  When children were considered truthful & pure,  and mother's love was the ultimate cure. When there was greenery more than roads, and nature was treated as abode. When at night the world used to rest, and the young adults weren't depressed. When women used to walk around careless, and nothing was ever such a mess. When people respected each other, and there was no bias on caste or colour. When people followed their passion, and following traditions was not fashion. When art was considered sacred, and there was never so much hatred. When there were more humans than people, and summers were filled with the singing beetles. There was a time, When everything was peaceful,  Yes it once existed, now in our memories, we cherish. Just for a day, I want that time back, so that the memories do not perish... ~ Guni  

Sometime, Close your eyes, take a break, listen to the quiet night, for you hear it everyday, but never listen... Feel the silence taking over, and the warmth getting lower...  Hear the crickets' concert, it might not make your ears hurt...  Close your eyes, take a break, listen to the blowing winds, for this maybe the last of springs... Feel them soon before they're gone, for they don't last after dawn... Hear the leaves rustle, and stop the hustle... Feel the wind blowing inside you, rinse your soul, for you need it, to live in this chaotic world. Hear the nature speak, for it is something we don't give an ear... The sound of nature is like water, it is what you want to make it,  You may call it a song, you may call it noise, you may ignore it... But listen to what it says for once, and you'll explore it... It is what you don't know exists,  It is something you need,  It is something so sweet The sound of the night is pure,  That blue feeling? It may even...

The world around me fell silent, the woofing dog decided to rest, the crickets slowly faded to silence.  The vehicles were shut down, except for a few,  for others already had on themselves, dew. No man shouting, no one celebrating, no one talking. Everything went to rest, and I was here, laying on my bed, waiting for sleep to take me over, but knock knock,  my mind made me think over... The clocks ticked, my legs kicked, my mind went deep, but of all the things I need, is a good sleep... Congrats, said a voice, you've made it till the dawn, now all your remaining hopes are gone  My mind stressed, my body shivered, my throat dried. Still I was laying here, with my eyes closed, but my mind open...  The sounds of the trains accompanied, slowly them too, fading away, while I am sitting here, with my burning and dripping eyes, words screaming inside,  writing this, right after my eyes cried ~ Guni